I sometimes think of these very interesting names and themes to write about. But never seem to be happy with the justice I do with them. However, today was slightly different; I started today thinking about the phone interview with the research guy at GE. It is on friday and I know in my heart I am not prepared. Every word I read and try to understand I feel I am trying to be a liar. I want it so bad that I feel this is the only opportunity for me to redeem my past. A chance to accept responsibility.

I sense how mindful I am of the opportunities and benefits this position presents, the dreams and aspirations, the pride. But it is only in mindlessness can I get peace and contentment I seek.