Ever since, I have heard about Baba’s ill-health (Deccan Chronicle) and a feeling of being left without a Guru. A sense of loneliness has started to fill me. It is ironic, because, I have only visited Him once so far. That was about 6 years back. But the possibility of not having Him has spurred a tussle between feeling guilty and feeling repentant for whatever I did which is against what Baba says. Guilt and repentance are mere words, but as a seed for thought one is depressive in nature and the other offers a chance to grow. Being mindful of this, is the hardest challenge I have faced so far in life.